Sunday, December 14, 2008
{ 3:41 AM }
today i just woke up, feeling uneasy just wanted to play back my game that i didnt play for a long time. making myself busy, but i still feel v uneasy. i went to meet my friends too. friends can betray mi. i know who is the one who betray mi. but i will not say it out. i know who u r? but i know u r that kind of person, i will not forgive u and tell u anything again. but i felt like going back my old path. but my good friend dont allow mi to, but nvm. it's ok wif it. after i tell my good friend i wan to go back out of sudden i receive her call. i get shock. i dunno wan to pick up not? but i still pick up her call. she straight away ask mi Y MUST U GO BACK UR OLD PATH? I said i dunno feel like lo. and i dunno y sudden so happening. i feel v tired that y i wish to go back ba. n my friends need mi too. she feel v du lan wif mi. i can feel that she wan to say this is an excuse but she didnt say it out. but i really feel that she v du lan mi. but i dont know wat to say. then she put the fone down. when i call her she didnt pick it up. then i sms her afew sms then i stop. cox i dunno wat to tell her. but i know she v pissed off i can feel that the way she sms mi. i am not trying to make her feel gulity, i just wan to make her happy that all. but i dunno y she feel that i wan to make her feel guilty. but i can swear i am not. i am feeling down but still get scolding by her haiz. but nvm use to it liao. maybe perhaps ba. afew hours later she sms mi again she asked mi can i listen to her? i replied back huh? wat u mean? she said dont ask y just answer the question she asked. i replied i will listen to u but must see wat is that 1st. she say that my friends and my family will worried for mi if i go back de. i thought she will ask mi not to back but she didnt. i mean i thought she can care for mi as a friend. but she dont even care de. i just need her care but she dont even bother it. but nvm maybe i use to it liao le. at least she sms mi and asked mi to promise her nt to go back. and i promised her i wont go back my old path. that's enough lo. i hope she will treat mi like the past time when we know each other the 1st time. we were good friends, when she have any problem she will tell mi. i dont like the way how she treat mi right now, cox she treat mi like a wall right now. can she promise mi that she will treat mi as a good friend like the past? can she? haiz! i dont think so maybe need time ba. i really hope she can treat mi as a good friend like the past. i should end here. haiz. days by days had passed.
saddy-ming
